In the midst of movement and chaos, keep stillness inside of you.

In the midst of movement and chaos, keep stillness inside of you.

May 9, 2011

Blue Bird on My Shoulder...

I heard something yesterday, "It's never too late to become the person you're supposed to be." I was watching tv last night with mom, and at the shows finale ended that quote was the last line as the shows image faded on screen. I heard it. I turned off the tv, brushed my teeth and went to bed. This morning I awoke and "It's never too late to become the person you're supposed to be" was the first thing I thought.

I pondered that thought while looking out my window. Never have I noticed anything, ever, perched in my window. This morning..... a blue bird. I have this medium sized owl figurine sitting on my window seal.  The bird was sitting right beside it as if he/she was sizing him up. It was odd. The bird sat there quietly for a few minutes then peacefully flew away. I began my morning prayer, and when I opened my eyes, the bird was back. I asked God for clarity on why the quote struck such a strong chord. {I also asked him to watch over my small blue friend in the window.}

That bird stayed in my window all morning. Didn't move. Didn't chirp. He just seemed to watch me while I prepared for the day. When I finally was able to leave, I was walking outside struggling with my purse, phone, keys, locking doors, dogs running inside and outside the house, etc.... I shut the door, put on my sunglasses and the bird had moved. I swear. He was sitting on my sidewalk rail. I know I'm odd {don't judge me,) but I greeted him with a soft "Hello Mr. Blue Bird" and rushed to my car.

While I was driving to Hot Springs this morning, the bird and that quote were still bothering me. Both were just waaaay obvious, you know. Like when you see a sign, and you just know you are supposed to pay attention. But quite honestly..... I need like a Vegas blinking, shiny billboard size sign to "get" it, usually.

I'm home with the family. I know it's exactly where I'm supposed to be right now. But, I do admit I think about when my dad is better what I want to do. You know age old question, "what do you want to be when you grow up?" I love that question because it allows us to think of what we really want to do with our lives. When I was a kid, I didn't think of bills, or a mortgage, or a credit card payment. I didn't think about 8-5 with an hour lunch break, rush hour traffic, or nasty, mean customers. Children can honestly say they want to be, " a doctor, a police officer, a nurse, a painter, or what about a musician, a basketball player, or maybe a pilot!" I think we had the best perspective of life when we were kids. Life hasn't gotten in the way yet. There are no complications or the "well, maybe after I do this, I can do ____." I'm not saying I know what I want to be when I grow up, but I am saying....... I sure can't wait to find out what it is!

No matter what has happened. No matter what life will bring next. It is what it is. Maybe that bird was just taking a breather on my window seal, or maybe..... it was telling me to take a look around. Start noticing all the breadcrumbs on the trail of my life. Open my eyes to the possibilities. Open my mind to the opportunities, and open my heart to what God has in store for me. It's never too late to become the person you're supposed to be." It kinda makes it sound like there is a plan.... a plan for me.... a plan for everyone. It might not be my plan.... yet. But, it might have always been God's plan.

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